With
you by my side, there is never darkness!
I
remember a time when I was working for a sales-oriented company. The
organization was no doubt very big, but the whole atmosphere/culture of the
organization was so negative that an optimistic person could turn double
negative, leave the ones who are pessimistic!
I
was not related to the sales process, I was just in a supportive Human Resource
team. I was a spectator to the chaos going on there. Seniors getting into their
bosses rooms, coming out and shouting their heart out on their juniors. The
juniors, few newcomers, few old ones, went out with a long face and shamed
look, looking down for a space to hide themselves, probably! They used to get
yelled at for nothing. Nothing at all. All I could do was, keep calm within me!
But
of course no one wants to work in such an environment, I was looking for
another job. Luckily, I found some opening which matched my exact profile and
was the perfect kind of job for me. I jumped up at the opportunity and went to
grab it. I was looking for that job with such high hopes that I didn't let me
think that there can be any other option other than - 'Getting this job!"
I was nervous, I had to get the job! When I reached the interview room, it
seemed perfect but whatever simple questions the interviewer asked, I could
answer none. Not the ones I knew, like back of my hand, not the ones I didn't
know! I was completely lost, I just wanted that job anyhow. It was such a
perfect kind of place. Calm, employees smiling/cracking jokes/ like any other
software company. Happy place. But the answers! Ahhhh!
I
still don't know what happened to me that day, why did I go under such a
pressure, how easily I lost that opportunity!
The
worst part, it was my first birthday after marriage. It got ruined! Completely!
I thought I would leave a negative place for an awesome company, but all my
dreams got shattered. I was completely broken!
I
went home, with big-big tears in my eyes, through the way-home. I just wanted
to cry. Alone in my room! When I unlocked my door, I was utterly shocked to see
my husband who had skipped his office to do some "first birthday
taiyari". I went and hugged him, and cried like a baby! He had no idea why
I was crying but he held on me and comforted me till I was in a state to talk.
I told him everything! Not that he didn't knew about this company culture I was
working for, but neither he nor me was aware that I was affected by the atmosphere
to this extent!
He
held me tight and said, "For me, resign from this one first and later we
will look for another job! You really deserve a better organisation to work
for!" It was the most unexpected reply I heard from him, but may be the
one I wanted to listen...live! I cried, more this time! Haha!
He
had planned a dinner out in a awesome place, but all we did was sat in our favourite
corner in the house, wrote the resignation letter, ordered a pizza and the
choco-lava cake, laughed like maniacs and celebrated our relationship and
togetherness! After losing the-best-opportunity-ever, resigning from the
existing job, being unemployed, not going out for a lavish dinner, I had the
best birthday ever!
I
still lookup to that day as the one which gave me strength to look beyond and be
positive and lookup at you...being there by my side!!!
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